forever searching

it's kinda weird how i find myself blogging half across the globe, on this tiny virgin island in the carribean. unthinkable? yeah, who would have really thought...

it has already been a month since i first set foot on this island. a month later, i find myself still a nomad and immobile with no apartment and no car. in this island where no jeep prevails and taxis are for tourists, you have two options to transport: hitch or drive your own car. while i would love to hitch and save dineros, i'd prefer to drive my own... at least i can go to the beaches and explore the mountains whenever i want to--btw, these are the only means to entertain yourselves on weekends if you've had enough of the world wide web, tv series re-runs, facebook-ing (sometimes the net can just be boring) or even on-line shopping (yeah, no malls here!). but it seems so that luck is not on my side... well at least for now. i've had already two attempts of being at the tip of a car deal. unfortunately, sellers here back out at the very last minute. and as for my apartment, it's really really hard to find studio flats-- and if there are, they're way above my budget. pffffffffffftttttttttt!!!! (read: FRUSTRATION)

so while i write this out of frustration, i come to accept the fact that for a little while, and unwantingly so, i will be searching for my car and apartment. and while i'm searching for these tangibles, i re-think on my purpose why on earth am i on this island thousand miles away from home?

i came in search for something. that something-- i'm not sure of... perhaps in search for a new career, or explore a new environment or maybe even plain self-discovery. and just like finding for my apartment and car, i'm pretty sure that it will also take me a little while to find what i have really been searhing for here on this beautiful island.