back again

nothing is final until everything is sealed by a contract—or if i’m already engaged into it. so i’m keeping my fingers crossed—hoping and praying that everything will turn out really well. meanwhile, i’m terribly worried over the results of my medical exams or to whatever thing/circumstance that may halt the momentum—perhaps, you may blame it to paranoia and my previous dealings with frustration. i know i shouldn’t be worrying for He has even greater plans for me but as much as i exert more than enough conscious effort not to worry, i still worry. weird, huh? but such entirely an ideal human feeling.

***tsk.tsk***

i arrived last tuesday morning unsurprised by how our apartment looked like—as usual, a total mess (this calls for another major cleaning on saturday, hopefully). i barely had enough time to relax and rest, my short trip in bacolod has been riotous—i mean, my nights were always occupied by events, gatherings, beers, coffee and dinner with friends and family. in fact, i’m sick up to now—i’ve had stomach problems these past days probably due to the amalgamation of different kinds of food my stomach savored (ouch!hehe!). i’m so stressed physically and mentally. a stupid decision i made is to book my flight very early in the morning so i could still catch up for work—the ending is headache, i mean literally. come to think of it—you wake up early, you carry with you so much luggage, you arrive in your messy apartment (and to think you come from home, where every single furniture or piece is in place, where every corner is clean!), and you work your butt at an instant…who wouldn’t have headache? now, i’m looking forward for this weekend, when finally i could have time for my self, clean my own room, fix my things, get my laundries, and sleep without worry that i might get late the next day. believe me, i’m back again in the real world!