i love you mama

mama is so worried about her condition. papa said she's depressed of her condition but that's normal because she's apprehensive of the possible negative result of her medical tests. i myself is very troubled, saddened by the fact that at this point of time, mama and papa should already have started seizing their liberty after having raised us well, provided us with the best education, and went through a lot of hell just to put us to where we are now. i know the advancement of technology has improved science and medicine through the years. i know (hope and pray) mama will get to see her apos. but what affects and pains me most beyond belief that there is a cure to whatever sickness mama has, is the fact that she has to go through all these worrying, all these doubts and fears, all these apprehensions. where supposedly, she should have already started fulfilling her own personal dreams and desires. those dreams that no longer include us, her children, in the picture. her wishes for herself besides from seeing us happy with our careers and finally settled--to whatever it is that the deepest of her heart desires.

i learned from tricia that the bautista sisters went to bacolod to extend their moral support to mama as she underwent CT Scan to aid in the diagnosis. i could not thank them enough for showing how family truly meant family. for whatever purpose God has in these trying times, i know well that there is something better into it. as for now, let's continue to pray and hope for the best for mama and our family. God is a good!

i love you mama!

small step

things are getting better at work. while my ex-boss is on leave, and future boss still seems to be a thing in the future, much work responsibilities have been delegated to me (by the big boss) and i’m just so elated with how things are, for now. people just don’t give you something you can’t do. i just hope i can pull it off… so help me dear God. (=

***tsk. tsk.***


i’m finally moving to my new room tomorrow and i’m just so so excited! finally, i will have my own room and enjoy the comforts of my privacy. goodbye to the dorm-type set-up—of which i have been into for more than a year already. now, i have a room i can call my own where i can feel like i am closer to home.

not that i don’t like sleeping in the same room with my housemates/ friends. don’t get me wrong. for the past year i have proved to myself that i can live, adjust and know how to make “pakisama” with a group of peeps totally different from moi. more, it has even taught me so much humility and respect for others. both i will treasure with me for the rest of my lifetime. but it’s time to move on and continue to live the way i have wanted to live—with comfort. so i decided to occupy the next room, by my lonesome. it’s just in the next room, we still have the living room and kitchen to share. still the same apartment. still the same old folks to wake up to everyday. it’s just my own way of making a small step at this point in time where things are so much financially budgeted. hehehe.