soon.

some things are not just meant to be.
it is an awful truth. i must know. and it hurts really really bad. but then again, you must realize, it is just a slice of life--tranche de vie! at some point tomorrow, you will find out that everything was planned, everything happened for a reason.

when the may results came out, i was in denial. oh no, not again. i could not feel very happy for the few who made it because most didn’t. i feel their pain, their agony, their disappointment, their frustration… i could almost die, if i were in their shoes.

but i underestimated their strengths—their will power to turn the next page of their lives, to move on—to whatever/wherever. i salute them for the courage. i salute them for their gift of acceptance. i salute them for smiling, when i know there is still hurt inside of them.. i salute them for not allowing theirselves to be vulnerable by this sad circumstance. and i feel very proud of them.

i share this poem i wrote to a friend a few months ago...

soon you shall be amongst the stars in the heaven.
shining even brighter than the others.
polished and glowing.
learned, wise and scarred.

soon you shall realize how wealthy you are.
how big your God is.
how unconditional the love your home brings to you.
how great the comfort non-strangers show to you.
how blest you are, after all.

soon you shall appreciate that the best things in life are the simple things we fail to see everyday.
you shall see how lucky you are.
soon.
very soon.

but for now, chill.
enjoy.
appreciate.
wait, patiently.
for a beautiful person like you deserves nothing but the grandeur of all grands.
certainly, something greater than you ever have wanted shall come.
soon.

also posted at http://joem.blogs.friendster.com/joem