some things are not just meant to be.
it is an awful truth. i must know. and it hurts really really bad. but then again, you must realize, it is just a slice of life--tranche de vie! at some point tomorrow, you will find out that everything was planned, everything happened for a reason.
when the may results came out, i was in denial. oh no, not again. i could not feel very happy for the few who made it because most didn’t. i feel their pain, their agony, their disappointment, their frustration… i could almost die, if i were in their shoes.
but i underestimated their strengths—their will power to turn the next page of their lives, to move on—to whatever/wherever. i salute them for the courage. i salute them for their gift of acceptance. i salute them for smiling, when i know there is still hurt inside of them.. i salute them for not allowing theirselves to be vulnerable by this sad circumstance. and i feel very proud of them.
i share this poem i wrote to a friend a few months ago...
soon you shall be amongst the stars in the heaven.
shining even brighter than the others.
polished and glowing.
learned, wise and scarred.
soon you shall realize how wealthy you are.
how big your God is.
how unconditional the love your home brings to you.
how great the comfort non-strangers show to you.
how blest you are, after all.
soon you shall appreciate that the best things in life are the simple things we fail to see everyday.
you shall see how lucky you are.
soon.
very soon.
but for now, chill.
enjoy.
appreciate.
wait, patiently.
for a beautiful person like you deserves nothing but the grandeur of all grands.
certainly, something greater than you ever have wanted shall come.
soon.
also posted at http://joem.blogs.friendster.com/joem
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
my fast long-weekend
finally, i was able to come home to sugary sweet bacolod. it has been 4 months since my last visit. the sad part though is that i only have 5 days and 4 nights to enjoy my leave (with due credit to my boss for allowing me to absent myself for one and a half day!). anyway, i still enjoyed my stay.
friday. as mentioned in my previous post, i was to attend a dear friend’s wedding at holy triumph. so friday, soonafter i arrived and had a brief lunch together with my siblings, i hurried myself to the church to practice for my part in the wedding. i was tasked to recite the second reading and prayers of the faithful. (initially, she asked me to be the commentator—thank goodness it didn’t push through! or else i would have totally messed up her wedding). anyway, after the practice, we decided to meet up again for her shower party later in the evening (yes, you heard it right!—and i was one of the very few invited! my first shower party ever! hehehe). i decided to drop by at lopue’s east before proceeding home to buy my favorite food—i sorely miss laziz’ hot shawarma (yummy!!! incomparable to the shawarmas here in manila). i got home, rested for a while, and watched the 24/7 pinoy big brother on cable. later, i went out for dinner with family and my tita’s family. our preferred viand: the infamous bacolod chicken inasal. (yehey, cheap but yummy!). thank God they decided to eat out in a preferred store near manokan country as i was the one to pay (for the very first time…hehehe). Afterwards, i went home to clean and prepare myself for the shower party. i'll give some privacy to the bride and her shower partymates/playmates--so i'll keep mum about this.
saturday. on my second day, i had lunch with family again at silay’s balaring. a seafood market-restaurant place near the beach. prawns, oysters and fish were served—all my favorite! (yummy!) in the afternoon, i met up with my college friends. we looked for a wedding gift for my to-be-liturgically-wed classmate (has been civilly wed already) and we ended up buying her spa gift certificates. they (excluding myself) also ended up having their toenails and fingernails polished. i watched them with joy realizing how time has matured us in a lot of ways. while we used to talk back then about gossips, teachers, assignments, school stuffs and other petty but funny topics, now we get to talk about our relationships (romance and non-romance), our careers, our work, our future, our own predicaments. Oh well, life!
sunday. since time won’t permit me to go to the spa, i indulged myself with a hot shower and a bubble bath. yes! i didn’t have a good shower since I left bacolod last december so it was about time to enjoy the bathroom. later in the afternoon, don in my favorite (and only) barong tagalong, i went to my to-be-liturgically-wed classmate. i almost fell while approaching my seat after reciting the 2nd reading. funny. my only hope is that the videographer was’nt able to capture it. poor me. the ceremony was solemn and the bride was beautiful in her gold, spaghetti-strapped, beaded ball gown. anyway, after the usual picture taking, we proceeded to the reception at business inn. the food was sumptuous, well-picked by the bride (a perfectionist herself). the program was fun— well, except for the emcee. hahaha! enough said. it was a hippy wedding, with three performing live bands. very reflective of how young, party-oriented, and flambouyant the couple is.
monday. my last day in sugary sweet bacolod was spent with my barkada. although, three were only present-- dar, myr and my twin. i only wish we were complete (when will that ever be again? wishful thinking.). the usual rounds of strolling in the halls and windows of the mall. hehehe. talking, gossiping over afternoon merienda, and riding in bump cars (hehehe!). childish, we will forever be. we dropped by the hospital together to visit my 4-year old angel niece who has been sick of some viral infection. after the visit, we hurried home to catch up with my favorite pbb. hehehe. as usual, mama cooked dinner for us. my friends, they have always been part of my family.
tuesday. i woke up and realized how fast my long-week-end was. i started packing up and realized how easier life would have been if I was with family. but how else could i learn if not the hard way?
--now, i’m back in my desk. back to my own world in makati. back to work. while the other half of me wanted me to stay home, the larger(?) half dictates that I should go back to work, proceed with my life, and start living by myself. complicated, but thrilling.
hmmmmm… what else would come next?
friday. as mentioned in my previous post, i was to attend a dear friend’s wedding at holy triumph. so friday, soonafter i arrived and had a brief lunch together with my siblings, i hurried myself to the church to practice for my part in the wedding. i was tasked to recite the second reading and prayers of the faithful. (initially, she asked me to be the commentator—thank goodness it didn’t push through! or else i would have totally messed up her wedding). anyway, after the practice, we decided to meet up again for her shower party later in the evening (yes, you heard it right!—and i was one of the very few invited! my first shower party ever! hehehe). i decided to drop by at lopue’s east before proceeding home to buy my favorite food—i sorely miss laziz’ hot shawarma (yummy!!! incomparable to the shawarmas here in manila). i got home, rested for a while, and watched the 24/7 pinoy big brother on cable. later, i went out for dinner with family and my tita’s family. our preferred viand: the infamous bacolod chicken inasal. (yehey, cheap but yummy!). thank God they decided to eat out in a preferred store near manokan country as i was the one to pay (for the very first time…hehehe). Afterwards, i went home to clean and prepare myself for the shower party. i'll give some privacy to the bride and her shower partymates/playmates--so i'll keep mum about this.
saturday. on my second day, i had lunch with family again at silay’s balaring. a seafood market-restaurant place near the beach. prawns, oysters and fish were served—all my favorite! (yummy!) in the afternoon, i met up with my college friends. we looked for a wedding gift for my to-be-liturgically-wed classmate (has been civilly wed already) and we ended up buying her spa gift certificates. they (excluding myself) also ended up having their toenails and fingernails polished. i watched them with joy realizing how time has matured us in a lot of ways. while we used to talk back then about gossips, teachers, assignments, school stuffs and other petty but funny topics, now we get to talk about our relationships (romance and non-romance), our careers, our work, our future, our own predicaments. Oh well, life!
sunday. since time won’t permit me to go to the spa, i indulged myself with a hot shower and a bubble bath. yes! i didn’t have a good shower since I left bacolod last december so it was about time to enjoy the bathroom. later in the afternoon, don in my favorite (and only) barong tagalong, i went to my to-be-liturgically-wed classmate. i almost fell while approaching my seat after reciting the 2nd reading. funny. my only hope is that the videographer was’nt able to capture it. poor me. the ceremony was solemn and the bride was beautiful in her gold, spaghetti-strapped, beaded ball gown. anyway, after the usual picture taking, we proceeded to the reception at business inn. the food was sumptuous, well-picked by the bride (a perfectionist herself). the program was fun— well, except for the emcee. hahaha! enough said. it was a hippy wedding, with three performing live bands. very reflective of how young, party-oriented, and flambouyant the couple is.
monday. my last day in sugary sweet bacolod was spent with my barkada. although, three were only present-- dar, myr and my twin. i only wish we were complete (when will that ever be again? wishful thinking.). the usual rounds of strolling in the halls and windows of the mall. hehehe. talking, gossiping over afternoon merienda, and riding in bump cars (hehehe!). childish, we will forever be. we dropped by the hospital together to visit my 4-year old angel niece who has been sick of some viral infection. after the visit, we hurried home to catch up with my favorite pbb. hehehe. as usual, mama cooked dinner for us. my friends, they have always been part of my family.
tuesday. i woke up and realized how fast my long-week-end was. i started packing up and realized how easier life would have been if I was with family. but how else could i learn if not the hard way?
--now, i’m back in my desk. back to my own world in makati. back to work. while the other half of me wanted me to stay home, the larger(?) half dictates that I should go back to work, proceed with my life, and start living by myself. complicated, but thrilling.
hmmmmm… what else would come next?
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
best wishes
i always knew that she will be the first among our class to get married. but i never thought this soon. last year, at a young age of 21, in civil ceremony, she married her long-time beau. six months later, in the midst of our review, i learned about it. i was not shocked. i knew she would take that risk for I have known her to be a strong-willed, brave and smart woman. i’ve seen her through her ups and downs— and she never gave up any single fight in her life. i knew that she had longed for that day to arrive. her dreams were simple-- to be a wife, to have lots of kids, to stay at home, to do business, and to be a bombshell (hip-chic) mom. so, another six months later, in holy matrimony, she and her husband made formal their vow, this time, God be their witness.
to my dearest friend, thank you for making me a part of your life. i hope that in this lifelong journey you will endure together with your husband and your future children, you may find God’s peace, true happiness and contentment. you truly deserve to be happy.
to my dearest friend, thank you for making me a part of your life. i hope that in this lifelong journey you will endure together with your husband and your future children, you may find God’s peace, true happiness and contentment. you truly deserve to be happy.
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