how lucky you were...

now i'm finally at it.
to work, to learn, to thrive, to exist.
all on my own.

its harder than i thought it was. exciting but thrilling at the same time. think of this... you are more than a thousand miles a way from home. you wake each day with no one to remind that you'll gonna be late. you look for food, and you realize that you have to cook it on your own. worst, you forgot to do the laundry. later, you do the grocery by yourself. you do the budget. you spend a portion on clothings and other luxuries-- all with deep regret. you see how fast your salary passes through your atm, through your palm. you are upset.

it then sinks in. you realize how lucky you were. that somebody used to wake you up in the morning. somebody used to cook food for you and even does laundry. somebody does your grocery. somebody buys you your clothes and luxuries. somebody provides your baon. and you even don't have to worry about money. lucky, indeed.