all worth the wait

more than 3 weeks ago, i was jobless.
and along with it--frustration.
i would often find myself crying and praying so hard.
God please provide me a job.

all the while i thought it was easy to find a job. well, maybe because my college professors say so--"after all you are a cpa, the job will find you." funny, i know. to whom much is given, much is expected in return.

the frustration is not so much about me wanting financial support for myself -as my folks would tell me always to take it slow and not to worry about money. neither is it about me longing for money to enjoy my luxuries. rather, the frustration stems from seeing yourself literally in bed whilst everyone else is having overtime workloads, browsing on their lap tops, walking in their business attires, tired and burned from work. jealousy, i suppose. ego.

i was the most excited to have a job. readied my attire already after the board, and shopped bit by bit to complete my business wardrobe. i guess, the overenthusiasm had much to do with the 3-month job vacancy period. i was picky with jobs. i was teased as having the most number of jobs applied-- from accounting to even far sales and marketing (it's true). but i enjoyed it, tiring though.

after some months, it then dawned to me: "joem, you still don't have a job!" shucks! worst, you would hear pity from others. or say someting that i should go home. or ask what's wrong with you? bad, very bad. even my parent's don't mind about me not having a job!!! why should others say that to me? why should they worry? why should they hurt me? absolutely, they have no right!

my ego is hurting, but i have to move. leave their worries behind me (after all, their worries are not mine). find more jobs and patiently wait. others may not seem to understand--the hell i care! as for me, i know that He instored greater things. to whatever road He is taking me, i shall want it.

now, i find myself in a cubicle, seated in a cozy office chair, in front of the computer, writing my blog while everyone is having merienda.
i have a work.
and i love it.
trust me, it is all worth the wait.
praise Him.